Wisdom Wednesday is a newsletter in which I am sharing my spiritual experience and expertise relevant to this Nature Year – the Year of Complete Surrender (September 23, 2019 – September 22, 2020).
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Yesterday, I spent from 9:30 AM until 10:00 PM working on this week’s Wisdom Wednesday newsletter. I came to a place of exacerbation and exhaustion and continued on for hours afterwards, resolved to meet my commitment to you. I completed the newsletter, though I wrote it from an uninspired place. As I lay in bed, I wondered what was impeding my Soul expression. I have been doing this work since early November, and something has changed. Lately, it’s been challenging for me to bring through the work. Why? This is the question I asked the Ascended Masters as I took my nightly dose of the La Vie de la Rose flower essence Evolving Dreamtime Consciousness.
Early this morning, I had a painful dream. A man and two women were interviewing me for a job. When I spoke about my qualifications, the women talked over me. By the end of the meeting, I recognized they had determined not to hire me, and I inquired as to the basis of their decision. One of the women replied saying I was narcissistic. I awoke with an intense pain in my heart center and tuned into the Ascended Masters. They advised me that some women who receive my newsletter, even if they don’t open it or only skim it, are judging me as narcissistic. I asked if there was something for me to heal here. Narcissism is a universal wound of the ego/personality borne of our experiences of diminishment. I have worked on healing narcissism. “Is it up again?” I asked. “No.” They replied. The judgements are projections: you are “being stoned” (referring to the past life as the Stoned Woman that I have been healing) and registering it unconsciously. They explained that these judgments were interfering with my writing channel.
My experience highlights women’s rejection of female leadership. Hillary Clinton hit the glass ceiling of political leadership. Most college-educated women voted for Donald Trump! Their negative projections of the feminine was one reason so many of them rejected Hillary. I am hitting the glass ceiling of spiritual leadership.Women bashing by women is a common reflection of the dark heart of the feminine, which is the product of a history of the diminishment of women.When you judge me as narcissistic, you are denying your unconscious feelings of diminishment and diminishing me instead. When you recognize your projections and withdraw them, your feelings of diminishment will surface for healing.
From her extreme jealousy and competition, one of my old colleagues sought to diminish me in a variety of ways. For example, in 2015, she joined me at a Chopra Conference in which I made my debut. Afterward, she told me the extent to which she had gone to undermine my success at the conference. Later in 2015, our Chinese distributor breached her contract with La Vie de la Rose, bringing the company to the brink of bankruptcy. Why? Jealousy and competition. One of her last acts was to cancel my scheduled trip to China, keeping the money which people pre-paid for my classes and private sessions. She told everyone she didn't know why I wasn’t coming to China and that she could now do the work that I had done. She had no training as a counselor, so she was ill-equipped to do the work. When I showed up in China a few weeks later, I am sure it shocked her. For the six months I spent there attempting to re-establish our work, she sabotaged my efforts with lies. 2015 was the year I awakened to the destructiveness of women’s jealousy and competition.
Get honest with yourself: What women are you undermining through competition, jealousy and judgment? Write each woman’s name on a piece of paper. Beneath her name, write how you are sabotaging her. Be sure to list your judgments.
Withdraw your projections: Take each of the judgments you have written and turn them around, e.g., if you wrote narcissism under the name Nataleah, say, “I acknowledge my narcissism.”
Open to your feelings of diminishment, such as guilt, shame, and self-loathing, which will surface as you withdraw your projections.
Be aware of your judgments of other women, and when they arise, say the following affirmation:
"Cancel clear all negative thoughts and thoughts of negative action."
Thank you Lisa for your inspiration
Note: I am guided to release the new Aquarian Triangle on Friday, July 24th. This is Chokhor Düchen and a 10 Million Multiplier, which marks the anniversary of the Buddha’s teaching of the Four Noble Truths. I will make the video available early in the day so you have plenty of time to listen to it on the 10 Million Multiplier if you so choose. I will not issue a Wisdom Wednesday newsletter again until July 29th, as I will be fully engaged in the relaunch of La Vie de la Rose, scheduled for July 17th!